High 5 For Friday (Vol. 8)

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Not gonna lie, it's been a rough week.  I'm exhausted.  I'm hormonal.  I hate my new work hours and I'm really worried about how things are going at work with the new company coming in.  On top of all that, I took a pregnancy test yesterday and got a BFN (Big Fat Negative.)  I'm praying it was just too early, and apparently I used the wrong test.  Note to all my fellow ttc'ers- don't use Clear Blue digital tests that are supposed to tell you how many weeks you are, they're not strong enough to detect a super early pregnancy.  I've also stumbled across a chart that helps explain what happens each day after an embryo transfer (I'll be posting that soon) which makes it clear that a home pregnancy test wouldn't detect a positive until tomorrow at the earliest.  So after wanting to curl up and die yesterday morning, then being talked off the ledge by some fantastic women in my life I'm finding it really hard to find 5 "high" points to high 5 about.  However, I do have 5 things that I'm very grateful for, so that will be the focus of this weeks post.

5 things that I'm grateful for, especially this week.

1. Family/Friends.  I am a firm believer that not only will family get you through life, but friends how have become family.  These are the people who know you inside and out.  They know your weaknesses but they love you anyway.  They're the people who know you're struggling and call just to make sure you're ok.  I am unbelievably blessed to have a few of these people in my life, as well as family who have become friends, and I wouldn't be able to make it through without them.  

2. New Friends.  Especially those who are going through the same struggles as I am.  I'm very lucky to have met some wonderful women through this blog and through facebook, who just understand, because they've been there or they're going through it.  There is nothing better than someone you just met being able to say exactly the right thing to you.  It's a beautiful thing when you find kindred spirits.

3. Warm comfy clothes.  I have been so bloated lately, thanks to medication and hopefully a blast that is growing inside of me.  Going to work and wearing jeans is just not something I want to do right now.  Being able to go home and curl up in sweats literally feels like heaven.

4. A helpful husband.  I'm not gonna lie, there are a lot of things that Jim does not help with and it is very frustrating.  But with this new schedule having me work til 7 or 8 pm every night, it is so wonderful that he will cook.  Granted, I usually set it up in the morning, leave it in the fridge and ask him to toss it in the oven, but he still has to make the sides.  The icing on the cake is that he's been waiting to make dinner so that it's still warm when I get home.  It really is the little things that can make me smile.

5.  Just the right song.  For me, my "favorite" song changes almost as quickly as the wind does, but every once in a while I stumble upon just the right song.  That one song that takes me away from all of it for 3-4 minutes.  The song I feel connected to, the song that makes me happy, the song I can sing along with and not care who sees or hears.  Right now, that song is "I believe" by Third Day.  I can't get the youtube video to connect, but hopefully the link works for you.  Also, here is a link to the lyrics.  I strongly recommend that you have a listen or at least read the words.  It's just the right song for what I need to hear right now.

There you have it, the 5 things that I am most grateful for this week.  Thank you so much for getting me through the tough days, the hard times, and all the crap that feels like it's piled up around me right now. 

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