Thursday, November 20, 2014

Bad dreams

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My mind really messed with me last night with the worst dream I have EVER had!
I was at a friends house.  The friend is someone I know in PA who lives in a house, but in the dream his home was a high rise apartment in Bayonne, but for some reason we could very clearly see the Statue of Liberty from his windows- much more clearly than would actually be possible from Bayonne.  

I was there with another friend and we were watching the news.
A "breaking news" alert came on and showed the Eiffel Tower and Big Ben being blown to smithereens!  Me and the other friend freaked out!  The person who's home I was in is actually in the military and laughed at us, insisting that it must be a prank.  As he was laughing we started to hear whistling and the apartment started to shake.  We looked outside and the town was being blown to pieces and we watched as the Statue of Liberty fell into the Hudson.

To say I felt panicked would be an understatement.  All I remember after that is the guys pulling me down to the floor to cover me from the damage and then waking up still feeling panicked!  
I've never had a dream so vivid or so emotional before!  I didn't watch anything crazy on tv last night, didn't eat anything weird before bed either!  

I think all these news of wars and ISIS is really starting to get to me!  

Has this happened to anyone else?

And now for your viewing pleasure a few photos that reminded me of this awful dream!

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Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Confidence... Or lack there of!


It's been brought to my attention that I have little or no self confidence.
I've been told I'm pretty, I just blush and say "shut up."
I've been told I'm smart, I just shrug and change the subject.
I've been told I'm capable of so much better, 
I hold back tears and stop myself from screaming "how?"

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The other night I went to dinner with a friend and the waiter was extra attentive to us.  I made note that he was super friendly and my friend laughed at me and said "he totally wants you."  What?  No one wants me!  That's just absurd.  The waiter was hot and way out of my league, there was no way in hell he was interested in me.  But my friend still insisted that was why we received the service that we did.
The reason I bring this up is because other people apparently see positive qualities in me that I just cannot see.  It frustrates them to see that I lack the confidence that I need to stand up and be strong and rock at life- something I desperately want to do.  So the question is:
How do I become confident?

How do I see the beauty that others see, when all I can see is the lumps and rolls that I attempt to cover in my clothes?
How do I believe in my intelligence, when I feel like every other thing I say is stupid or crazy?
How do I take life by it's horns and show it who's boss, when I feel completely lost and uncertain?
How do you find confidence?
What can I do to see what other people see in me?

In search for the answer I found this article but 
I'm very curious to hear what y'all have to say on the subject. 
What are you most confident about?
What do you do to build your confidence?

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